When I recently reached out to my professor that gently guided me through my journey of " finding your niche and value through knowing your history" because I was considering grad school, she made a wise and insightful observation/comment:
"Of course you know that I am your biggest supporter as it relates to grad school, but I wonder if your desire to go back has more to do with the fact that you are used to being busy all the time and you are energized by staying busy and active? I think you will find your niche, but it may just take you a moment. Remember, you were the one that taught us all about "age-ism!"
Ahhh yeah the dirty A word. The very thing that thrust me from corporate America, from being a productive working taxpayer and homeowner. It is so sad that people continue to deny its existence. I know it does, it has tried to cover me like the dew covers dixie, but like the the bright and warming sun, I am continuing to cause it to evaporate. I initially was told when seeking work that I didnt have a degree for higher paying positions and my experience was so varies that it confused the HR people. I simply knew how to do so many things that I was "overqualified. " Funny, overqualified and under educated in the same body.
My faith is so much stronger than my detractors. This is but another hiccup . I am so glad that I am among Gods favored. I know that He knows each hair on my head and each step that I will take.
Jeremiah 29:11 says:
"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
So with faith and hope at my side and 'thus sayeth the Lord" I move forward, expectantly into the next phase of this life that He has blessed me with. Just because we grow older, we don't need to give up on life, our abilities, or opportunities. I pause to consider whether I really want to pursue grad school, or polish my writing abilities and crank out something of substance to share with other. If it is His will I will go to Grad school, in His time. If not I will continue to follow whatever path that He has for me. Either way it will be fulfilling.Trust in the Lord above, He will guide you according to His will. When you think the sands of time are running low in the hourglass, turn it over, that's what I do.
